D Sisive - Jac

My number one priority`s lost in the game of life  
cause death was dominant 
It`s prominent that I`m losing my touch  beacuse my confidence 
Consists of zero motivation  the frustration 
Be taking the best of me...Losing the chemistry 
I once possessed  rest assure  the focal point`s the metaphor 
From J.A.C.  her words of wisdom was always the best of cures 
In rough times  I`d follow her routes  receive the tips 
And when I took the risk it seemed that rough times never existed... 
In my memory, avoided the density and the felonies 
And questioned the... `Why was this angel sent to me?` 
It was never understood clearly...The consipracy theory 
Left thoughts weary and eyes constantly tearly 
From the loss that was faced, my property was defaced 
From the relization that she could never be replaced 
By any other, to others, they`d all be running for cover 
But the opposite was witnessed from my mother 
Instead she stood her ground and fought, round for round and brought 
The insparation that was caught by myself, that surely taught 
That the posotive always rise and shady ones are dispised 
I`m seeing it with my eyes, so it ain`t really a surprise that... 
Only the storng survive, and the weak always demise 
But why is it the good ones always have to die? 
...I`ll try to sleep tight, 
despite the fact I guess I`ll never see the light... 

* Hook * (X2) 
I`m feeling pressures the most at night times 
when I lay back and close my eyes 
And realize simply how much you`ve been there for me 
It ain`t to see, but soul searching keeps me awake at diffrent times 
To reconize how much you really mean to me...J.A.C. 

In a retrospect state, 
I vision all my respect escalate into the highest rate... 
But the state of mind that I was placed in, subtracted from the rasing 
Of myself into a grown man for an unknown span of time 
I slowly felt I was losing my mind and then entering adulthood blind 
Without the guidance that you once selected, 
after proceeding to reflect it... 
Stayed imbedded within my brain...Time and time again 
I strained my vision to see things clearly, but abstract blurs 
Conqured my life facts severely 
While suffering was mearly the side effects 
We gave our best to elongate or avoid the permanent rest 
`But it was only a test` Then the days of life became less 
Due to infectious breasts, that risked the threat...Leaving defects 
On your physical frame, 
cause you were playing a losing game with nobody to blame 
But your will to maintain...Never lost a single second of life 
And left us with the posotive attitude that you`d survive through 
the night 
But our perspective could not always be right 
My body grew tight when the phone rang constantly on the expected night 
On November two-nil when my emotions spilled 
Cause I heard you had to face your passing, then the world turned still 
And I totally lost my surviving will, 
to experience the best face death and realize that it`s for real 
Could never steal the appeal from memories that were lavishly attacking me 
But still I passivly erased all the feelings from the damaged fee 
Selected normally, and tried not to vision what the manics see 
It seemed like yesterday when we were singing songs by David Cassidy 
Along with our entire life together passing me by like Pharcyde 
While I`m bucking up for the ride 
Basic intentions try to strive for goals you offred motivation for 
Destinations were reached through formations of my speech 
Boosting me for the reach therfore I have to impeach 
From 51 to 97, I`m posotive you`re let in 
That unconqured land that lies behind the gates of heaven 
Beacuse we stuck by our word `Til death do us part` 
And since I`m not seeing you phisically, you reside in my heart J.A.C. 
...I`ll try to sleep tight, 
despite the fact I guess I`ll never see the light... 

*Hook * (X2)